
March 15, 2009


I don't want to disappoint him or my family. Of course i want to do well in life, be successful and earn money and have a happy life. It is just a matter of whether i like it or not..
I love my dad that he is helping me with everything, and i dont want his efforts to go to waste. I want my life to relate to medicine. I guess i am just afraid, but i am not anymore. I want to be successful and achieve big things.
oh and i told my friend that she couldn't stay here, and i have a feeling that she is mad, i don't know.. the feelings are always very mix. I feel like she is mad that i won't rescue her or something.. But, these days me and my dad are not very good and we are just discovering our differences and improving our relationship. I hope she is not mad, i hope she can understand me. I am just trying to get away from the reality. I want to be in a world where i don't have to please anyone, or i don't have to make everyone happy. I want to be in a world where i'm happy with me and i am satisfy with what i am doing. That is the world i want to be in now. I just want people to understand..
i hope you do
♡Kawaii,